Current mood: sad
Well, it's been about 16 days since the rug was pulled out from under me; and it's been one week today since I've had to bury my mama, and every time I think about it, I well up, and almost loose it. I miss her terribly. It's been 17 Days since I talked to her last, and I remember it vividly. Our last conversation was about me not going to church with her that night. I wanted to go see the kids, then Go home and pack for my trip. She was sitting on her bed, doing her make up, giving me the guilt trip that I wasn't going to church. Our last phone call the night before was about what she learned in church that night.
My mom went to church by herself that night, sat in our same spot, enjoyed her Praise and Worship, came home, and went out with Stacy and Friends. Mom sent me a text message just before 1AM to ask me a question, and I put it off, deciding that I'll just call her tomorrow, because I was tired. A decision that will haunt me forever. As most all of you know, my Mom was my best friend. She meant the world to me, and she was apart of almost every decision I've ever made.
I'm not scared of too many things in this world, however I'm deathly afraid of what the future holds without my mama in it. My one saving grace is my salvation, family, my brothers and my sister, their kids, and most of all Iris and Mia. I wouldn't necessarily say this is a new chapter, but a new book. We have to start all over again, with the lessons and trials we've learned from the previous life and beginning a new without the #1 influence in our lives, or rock, our mentor, our saving grace, our mama.
We all have our trials, and tribulations, however the one thing I suggest, is never take your loved ones for granted. As my family and I found out the hard way, no one is promised tomorrow. Like my friend Kim says, "Live, Laugh, Love" every day, live your life not regretting anything, because when that day comes, when God reaches down his hand and and calls one of us to come home, he's not going to ask if we're ready, so we have to be prepared.
I know this seems a bit solemn however, ya'll come to read what's on my mind. I know I'm usually full of life and spirit, and I am. Just give me a minute, I just lost my mama, and my best friend.
Thank you all for those who came or called, or emailed their love and support; my great friends, you are awesome. I felt the world stop for a minute, and you all were there to pick up the pieces around me. You know who you are. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you.
Thank you Charles Mitchell "Skip". You were asked to do this family an enormous duty, despite your close connection to my mom, and you completed it flawlessly, with grace, elegance, and class. You have one more mission this family asks of you. We all will see you again!
As my mom always said "Go Big, or Go Home."
Remember the Titans (Full Screen Edition)
Release date: 2001-03-20