Saturday, April 11, 2009

TIme keeps on ticking...

Current mood: sad
Category: Blogging
Well, it's been about 16 days since the rug was pulled out from under me; and it's been one week today since I've had to bury my mama, and every time I think about it, I well up, and almost loose it. I miss her terribly. It's been 17 Days since I talked to her last, and I remember it vividly. Our last conversation was about me not going to church with her that night. I wanted to go see the kids, then Go home and pack for my trip. She was sitting on her bed, doing her make up, giving me the guilt trip that I wasn't going to church. Our last phone call the night before was about what she learned in church that night.

My mom went to church by herself that night, sat in our same spot, enjoyed her Praise and Worship, came home, and went out with Stacy and Friends. Mom sent me a text message just before 1AM to ask me a question, and I put it off, deciding that I'll just call her tomorrow, because I was tired. A decision that will haunt me forever. As most all of you know, my Mom was my best friend. She meant the world to me, and she was apart of almost every decision I've ever made.

I'm not scared of too many things in this world, however I'm deathly afraid of what the future holds without my mama in it. My one saving grace is my salvation, family, my brothers and my sister, their kids, and most of all Iris and Mia. I wouldn't necessarily say this is a new chapter, but a new book. We have to start all over again, with the lessons and trials we've learned from the previous life and beginning a new without the #1 influence in our lives, or rock, our mentor, our saving grace, our mama.

We all have our trials, and tribulations, however the one thing I suggest, is never take your loved ones for granted. As my family and I found out the hard way, no one is promised tomorrow. Like my friend Kim says, "Live, Laugh, Love" every day, live your life not regretting anything, because when that day comes, when God reaches down his hand and and calls one of us to come home, he's not going to ask if we're ready, so we have to be prepared.

I know this seems a bit solemn however, ya'll come to read what's on my mind. I know I'm usually full of life and spirit, and I am. Just give me a minute, I just lost my mama, and my best friend.

Thank you all for those who came or called, or emailed their love and support; my great friends, you are awesome. I felt the world stop for a minute, and you all were there to pick up the pieces around me. You know who you are. Thank you, Thank you, Thank you.

Thank you Charles Mitchell "Skip". You were asked to do this family an enormous duty, despite your close connection to my mom, and you completed it flawlessly, with grace, elegance, and class. You have one more mission this family asks of you. We all will see you again!

As my mom always said "Go Big, or Go Home."

Michael~
Currently watching:
Remember the Titans (Full Screen Edition)
Release date: 2001-03-20

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Mom

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Mom

Don't grieve for me now, I am free;
I'm following the path God has laid, you see.
I took his hand when I heard Him call,
I turned my back and left it all.

I could not stay another day
to laugh, to love, to work, to play.
Tasks left undone must stay that way.
I found the peace at the end of the day.

If my parting has left a void,
Then fill it with remembered joys.

A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss,
O yes, these things I too will miss.

Be not burdened with times of sorrow,
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow.

My life's been full, I've savored much,
Good friends, good times, a loved ones touch.
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief,
Don't lengthen it now with undue grief.

Lift up your hearts and peace to thee,
God wanted me now - He set me free.

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CHAVEZ -- Theresa "Terry" Elaine
Chavez, of Albuquerque and Isleta Pueblo at 51 years old, a daughter,
sister, single mother, grandmother and good friend went to be with our
heavenly father on Thursday, March 26, 2009.
Terry was a wonderful devoted mother to her children and
grandchildren. In her own words, "my heart will always belong to my
kids." Terry was always on a football or soccer field cheering being
her kids' "Best Fan". Our mother was a fighter and suffered from
serious health issues over the last 22 years. She was diagnosed and
treated for cancer; however she never showed her pain and suffering.
Terry passed away at her home peacefully in her sleep with her cat at
her side. Our mother was a strong woman of God and attended Legacy
Church faithfully with her children and grandchildren. We know beyond a
shadow of a doubt she is with our Lord God, free from the pain and
torment this lifelong struggle brought her. Pallbearers will be Michael Chavez, Jason Chavez, Scooter Chavez, Angelo Mora, Jim Ryder and Kenny Lingad. In lieu of flowers donations may be made to the Animal Humane Society in memory of Terry Chavez, 615 Virginia SE, Albuquerque, NM 87108.

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Notes from my mom's Funeral

I dont know how long I'll keep this up, however, for those of you who weren't able to make it, and those who just may want to read it again, here are m notes.

The song that played after that, was Sissy's Song - By Alan Jackson.
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I guess I could easily sit here and tell you stories to make you all feel sorry for me and my family, however, I’m not going to do that today. ....

I am here to tell you that although I’m going to miss my mother dearly, I am at peace
with her passing now.....

As many of you know, my mother was my best friend. ....

I have many good friends, several great friends and peppered in there are a few true friends, ....
however, my mother was my best friend. ....

I told her EVERYTHING. We talked about every thing under the sun. ....

We wouldmake it each other’s mission to make each other laugh every chance we got.
Sometimes at many of ya’ll’s expense too. We’d crack each other up.

My mom loved to laugh, she loved to smile, and her greatest ....mission.... in life was to see her kids happy and successful.

Sure I’m going to miss my mom, how could I not. I am going to miss my noon phone call, my Wednesday night church buddy, our sunday morning - dragging each other out of bed at 10am – phone call, church
buddy.

My Sunday mexican food lunch buddy. ....

My Comedic side kick, however knowing beyond the shadow of a doubt that she spent her last
evening on this earth, in church praying for us; and reitering the promise that she loved the lord Jesus christ as her lord and savior carries the belief that she is with the Lord our God; free for the first time of the pain and suffering this life long struggle has brought her.....

Tod brought up a good point last night, and I remembered a conversation that my mom, Jim and I had a long time ago. We came to the conclusion that if one of us should pass on, we should throw a
party.

I mean, my mom’s happy. She is, for the first time, free from pain. ....

I mean- show of hands –how many people saw her go thru what she went thru with all of her surgeries?

Do you remember the pain she went thru?

Rose, do you remember her holding our hand and begging ....us.... – that she just can’t take
another drain?....

Jason, do you remember the IV’s and Tubes and drains she came home with?....

I remember – taking care of her with all of that stuff, I remember being at her bed side, begging her to fight for her life and for her daughter when she was barely hanging on by a wing and a prayer, and she fought – she fought for us. she fought for us.....

So tell me, what makes more sense - morn her passing and wishing she was still here in that God forsaken torment and torture, or be happy, excited, and filled with Joy that for the first time in almost 22 years, she is no longer in any torment, any pain, any suffering. She probably forgot what that felt like. ....

I mean, she just hit the lottery. She is in HEAVEN, gearing up for a new work that God has set for her! We should be happy, we should be excited! We should be overjoyed!....

We will miss my mother. We will miss my best friend. ....

Each one of you here today are here because she left some kind of lasting impression on you. Take that memory home with you, and not only cherrish it, but use it. Use it to do something kind for someone else. Someone you probably don’t even know.


Make it your personal mission to put a smile on someone else’s face for no other reason than to just see them smile.

This is what she did. You want to honor my mother’s memory, that’s how you do it. Use what she taught you, and get-r-done.....

Today is the worst day of my life – I have to bury my mother, and my best friend. I’m going to cry, I’m going to break down, I’m going to almost not make it, however, once I realize that I’m going to live
thru this, I’m on a mission. I hope you’ll join me! ....